The Game Never Changes

I've been working on my self-esteem and self perception lately.  I find that I worry way too much about what I think other people think of me, which is just ridonkulous.  Honestly, if I dig deep and really think about it, I've been worrying about this my whole life.  I stress about it, fret about it, base a lot of what I do and decisions I make around it.

Why?

Because I like people to like me.

One key point I've been missing is that I don't have to be someone different to have people like me.  If I'm myself, my friendly, weird, goofy self, the people I want to have in my life will be in my life.  And if they aren't, then they weren't meant to be in my life.  Why waste so many of my minutes and hours trying to please everyone?  Also, why has it taken me 33 years to figure this out?

We all works in progress.  I am a work in progress.  I want to grow everyday, making myself a strong, well rounded, education, nice but kooky woman.  I want to be someone that my daughters look up and say "Hey, my mom was pretty awesome".  I don't want them to remember me moping and not being all that she could be.