Sunday, September 19, 2010

Failure

Failure is not an option.

In my case, it really isn't an option, it's a given.  I'm one of those people who starts to slack off, or "fail" and then I shrug my shoulders and decide to fail even harder.  Meaning...eat one "bad" thing, then decide to just go ape, if you will, and power through a lunch at McDonald's, with cookies.  Did I feel like crap, physically, afterward?  I sure did.  Mentally, definitely.  But in that moment, it felt good...like a release to binge on what I wanted.  I know that it's not considered fuel for my body, and that it'll make me feel like crap afterward, but the taste is what I aim for.

That being said, I haven't worked out since the beginning of last week.  It's a shame too, because I was eating very healthy at work, and I really could've powered the two together to make a difference.

Am I too hard on myself?  I don't think I'm hard enough on myself.  If I were, maybe I would have the motivation to carry through with what I set forth to do.  I need like a personal drill sargent to scream at me at 4 am and tell me to get out of bed to go run or do cardio.  I need someone to sit on my should and play devil's advocate about what I'm going to put in my mouth.

Failure.  Fai-lure.  Lure.  You fail because you're lured into things you shouldn't have.  You're lured into continuing to sit on the couch.

2 comments:

  1. Just because something isn't 100% successful doesn't make it 0% successful. Instead of looking at that McD's or not exercising, try focusing on how healthy you have been eating at work. Was that something you were doing before? If not, it's a success. If so, it's continued success.

    With exercise, you haven't failed, you just haven't made progress. Next week, push yourself a little bit more and get in 2 workouts instead of 1. And hard as it may be, you really will need to try to work your life around your exercise and not your exercise around your life. It's the only way to guarantee it will get done. Considering it equivalent to brushing your teeth or taking a shower. It cannot be skipped.

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  2. Thanks Ruth. That's a really positive way of looking at it. I am actually doing a "trial" this week at work for our new fitness/nutrition program, so that'll count!

    You're right though, I do need to look at working out as part of my daily routine, period.

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